I’ve been speculating of late on the various things I am, both flattering and less so.
I can be selfish. I want what I want. I think I should get to have the say in how things go, I think I make good decisions, and that my decisions almost always have positive outcomes, therefore, I should get to be in charge.
I can be bitchy. Watch me arch an eyebrow sometime, or roll my eyes at someone’s foolishness. I can be a bitch.
I can be inflexible. I think of myself as stiff-necked at times. Probably were I going to change a single thing about myself it might be that. It’s hard for me to go with the flow, to let things happen around me. I should be in charge, I should make it all come out fine.
I can be a sadist, too, though that is, I think, very much an on-again, off-again part o...Read More
So, I would guess that the unflattering term that is most applied to me by those among whom the ranks of my fans do not swell, is “bitch.”
(I’m sure that’s not the only unflattering term that has been been bandied about, only the most common.)
And I can live with that, actually.
I have always felt as though being called a bitch means I won.
And I can be. A royal bitch on wheels. I expect people to do their best, to at least put forth effort. I can hold feet to the fire, and I am capable of spite. I’ve learned, I think, as I have aged that spite usually brings on regret for the action, so I have learned to do it rarely, but be assured, I consider it often. I just choose to be an adult about it.
Don’t you hate that, when you have to be an adult? You work yourself up into a good hi...Read More
That is the question.
I have a picture of myself at about three, which my ex, Beth, onee told me that I should, “put on your dominatrix page.”
I have said about myself that I was bossy at the age of three, and those of you who know me might recognize my current self buried in that personality, with her hands propped on her hips, looking up at the camera.
Honestly, to some extent, bossy and dominant are often the same thing, at least in most of the people I know.
The inability to make decisions is an astonishing thing to me. I can make decisions quickly, and my judgement is usually pretty good, meaning that my tendency to decide quickly usually has pretty good re-enforcement.
While making a decision to do – or not to do – something is usually a fairly quick one for me, experience has als...Read More